I don't think I'd ever be able to stop doing theater. Never in my whole life. 

It's the only chance I have to play pretend. To ump around and swing swords or put on a fake accent - all things that used the be part of 'playing pretend' when we were children. 

I wish I was still a kid. I mean, I'm only 14 but still. It would be so much easier and I could have so much more fun. 

I want to fly. 

I spent half an hour jumping around my room pretending to be Peter Pan. 

I'm gonna have awesome dreams tonight, I know that. 

But think about it. 

Wouldn't it all be easier if we were kids again?

Sudden Samba

I've been having some pretty strange dreams lately. I can't really remember the one I had last night, which sucks because I could remember it this morning... it was weird. Just random obscure things that create the weirdest story lines ever. 

John Coltrane is pretty awesome. 

So is Miles Davis. I'm in that kind of mood. It's a good mood.

 I think I'm getting alot better at soloing and everything in general. It's kinda cool.  I haven't really gotten any better in the past jazz camps but this one is really helping. 

I set up my keyboard in my room. Last night I sat for about half an hour and soloed over different chord progressions. It was fun, which is cool because I haven't had fun soloing or playing jazz in a while. 

my life is pretty sweet right now, the only downside is that anyone that doesn't go to jazz camp I haven't seen nor will see for two weeks. 

I'm going to the Japanese Culture Festival with Caitlin and Zoey on saturday. I'm spending the night at Caitlin's house again. I can't wait until I ca drive. Then I can just drive down to her house on my own. Caitlin and Zoey are the girls I went to fanime with. 

On a separate note, if you like anime/manga I just finished watching two awesome animes that are also awesome mangas that I've just started. 

The first one is called 'Elfen Lied'. It' s described as Bipolar because in some parts in could be this really cute anime and in other bits it's gory and scary as shit. just go watch it. It's been described(not just by me) as 'The most hardcore anime ever'. 

That's the trailer.

The second one is called Majin Tantei Nougami Neuro. It's about this Demon who eats mystery's so

he comes to earth and finds a girl to solve mysteries for him so he can eat. Go watch it, at's all on youtube.

Ok. Adios.

Summer makes me happy. I guess because I have virtually nothing to stress about. Even things that I do stress about or become angsty over go away pretty quickly. 

You know why? Because I remember that it's summer - and I've got a deck by the pool to go sunbath on, a pool to go swim in, a green lawn to lay out a blanket and eat lunch on, friends to go see, and things to do. 

Whatever I'm stressing about isn't anything urgent or anything that needs something to be done about it, so there's really no point in worrying about it, because I've got better things to do. Summer is when I can do what I want - no studying, no seeing annoying people every day because they go to school with you. 

Unfortunately, my mother is planning on changing the whole not studying thing tomorrow. She's right in her decision, because I really should be studying over the summer, but I don't want to. That and she thinks I'm going to fail at life if I don't go exercise every day. I'm not.

So other than that annoying factor this summer is going to be one of the best ever.  My mum finally got it through her head that the bus isn't some scary thing that all her children refuse to use. My older sister refused to use the bus, so my mum thought all the rest of her children didn't want to either. Best thing ever. 

So yeah. It's awesome and I'm having fun and hopefully that will continue. 

The end of a year. 

It's time to relax. Play in the sun, in the water, without deadlines or alarm clocks. 

I've been waiting all year and now it's time for summer. 

I feel like I started freshman year a week ago. It's insane. 

Tomorrow, the summer begins. 

Cat ears, lolita's, cosplayers, and finals, a lot has happened since I last posted. 

I'm just about to start finals. I'm screwed. 

I looked up lolita and decided I want to make a skirt. Not necessarily a lolita skirt, just a skirt. 

next halloween I'm doing something with the cat ears I got and a lolita-ish something. 

So much has happened this year. I've grown so much. I've met people that have changed who I am. At the beginning of the year I was so different. 

I guess we all grow over time. It's kind of sad. I don't really want to grow up, yet here I am ending my freshman year. Next year I'll be a sophomore. The year after that, an upperclassmen. I'll be expected to be stressing out about college and my future, be responsible, be an adult. 

I don't understand why girls my age and younger than me try so hard to look and act older than they are. 

I watched Peter Pan the other day and I think I can relate to Wendy a lot. I don't want to grow up. I'd much rather be telling stories and dressing up as pirates and dreaming about flying than worry about school and what I'm going to do with my life. 

But unlike Wendy, I know what I'm going to do with my life. I'm going to make art. Make art to make people happy. The smile people have when they see the t-shirt they're getting is a thousand times better than the ten dollars they pay me for it.  It makes me happier than any amount of money could. 

I'm a dreamer. I know that. All I want to do with my life is be happy. Tell stories with words and pictures, put a smile on someone's face. 

And most of all, what I wish I could stop the most, is the way children want to grow up so fast. Because the quicker you grow up the less time you have being truly happy. 

And being happy, and making people happy, is all I want to do. 

 

I've never really thought of science of my favorite subject, but it really is. It's not my favorite class, but content wise I love it. 

We're doing powerpoints on environmental stuff. My friend and I are doing one on water use. 

we got to the part of 'what can you do to help this?' 

Alot of people don't do anything because they don't think that anything they do can help a global problem. They don't understand the whole picture. 

I don't understand how people don't understand it.  if a million people do one small thing each to help a problem that takes one million and one people to solve, it helps. 

Imagine a beach. On that beach there are 11 children. In front of them are 13 shiny, pretty, shells. The first child takes one, thinking that no one would notice one missing from 13. Now there are only twelve. All the children take one shell, and there are only two left. 

Imagine someone walking up to the place they put all their lovely shells to find 2 left. 

Is that not making a difference? !

It's on a much larger scale when we talk about saving water and global warming, but it still applies. 

Why can't people understand that? 

MORE weird theorys

Science class is so much fun right now. not the class really, but more of what my imagination does with the material. 

If you look back a couple posts, you'll find one about aliens and me speculating about how the earth is a cycle and all that. 

Just so you know, I don't actually believe that. I'm not a crazy scientist. It's just theorys that would make a cool sci-fi book. 

But anyways, we're studying the planet right now. Venus and Mars are the ones I want to talk about. You know why? Because they both, at some point, could have been something like earth. 

Mars has ice caps, and is believed that is once had oceans. Whose to say that it didn't have life billions and trillions of years ago? That it was once an earth - and maybe it had thriving life like our earth does now, and some disaster happened that cause water to dissapear and all life forms to be wiped out. 

It's almost the same thing with Venus. Venus's atmosphere is thick, and made up entirerly of green house gasses. it's extremely hot because of that, and no one would ever survive because the gas is very poisionous. What if it was an earth once, with life forms that found out how to build technology and stuff? And, just like humans are now, went through global warming because of it. But they weren't smart enough to try and stop it, and it slowly got worse, untill the temperature was so hot that people were dropping like flys and the gases were so bad no one could go outside. Everyone died, and the heat (which is currently 300 and something degrees celcius) consumed everything and the gasses killed anything that was alive. 

Mercury's too close to the sun to have anything ever live on it. 

so yeah. science is awesome right now. and I just cut my own hair yesterday(I actually know how) and it looks good. I'm going to get it cut shorter for the summer. 

adios. have fun with my strange science theorys.